Time to Reflect

I don't know how single moms do it, I really don't. I need atleast 6 hands with James being in China and I only have 2. I found myself so stressed out about every little thing this weekend. I have found it extremely hard to handle Mira, Kayla, and Adam and I thought I was at my wits end by Saturday afternoon. I think my mom knew I needed help because she came over Saturday and went grocery shopping with Mira and me. For some reason, Mom knows how to comfort without even trying - I guess that is what moms do. Hopefully I will learn that. I was getting ready for church this morning and I had yelled at Adam, gotten frustrated because Mira wouldn't stay down for her nap, and lucky Kayla hadn't arrived yet. I told myself to chill out, literally. Sometimes things don't happen when you want them to and they never go as planned. I called Adam to come downstairs and I can only imagine he was sitting there saying, "What did I do now?" I apologized profusely from the bottom of my heart and begged for forgiveness. You could see the look of relief on his eyes. And when Mira woke up fifteen minutes later after taking very little of a nap, I went upstairs, smiled at my baby, and thanked God he gave me such wonderful gifts. I think Mira sighed in relief but I can't be sure - it might have been gas. I have also learned how understanding Kayla can be when her Nana is stressed to the max. She has told me she loved me atleast 10 times today and I have no idea what I did to deserve that. I don't have as much time for her or as much patience lately. I hope she looks over my crabbiness and remembers how much I love her. Motherhood aint easy but it is worth every single minute, even the hard ones.